Weekend.

High with Bree.
Sex with Dennis.
Still dating Cory.

I'm a really bad person.

A break in the clouds

Things are so much better.
No more cutting.
No more throwing up.
No more depression.
No suicide thoughts.

I'm in a great place in my life right now.
Cory is the most wonderful boy ever.
I should have dated him last year when he first showed interest.

Alyssa is back in my life.
She apologized for being horrible.
She spilled her guts.

Finally, a bit back on track.

Unexpected Attraction

Cory spent the night.
He's eighteen.
I've always really liked him.
I didn't know he still liked me.
Things led to other things.
We made out for a good five hours on the living room couch while everyone was sleeping.
It was amazing.

It's good to see that things are finally turning around.
I can still feel his lips.
:] I think I have a crush.

Suicide Watch

I didn't even know it was a real thing.

I'm on suicide watch.

Dad watches me take my pills.

I can't lock the bathroom door at any time.

Mom searches my purse and my backpack.

I can't lock my door, they broke the lock.

I'm not allowed to close my bedroom door.

I can only sleep from 9 to 6.

Any excess sleeping will be thought of as me taking sleeping pills.



I HATE THIS.

One weekend of intense pot was not worth this.

I hate this.



On top of it all, Alyssa isn't making things better.

I hate her so much.

She's been the fakest friend I've ever dealt with.